Could it be that spiritual growth can be likened more to having a baby than some alternate, otherworldly or angelic analogy?
I think so.
Today I'm reading A Year of Daily Wisdom, a simple rotating calendar by Marianne Williamson based on A Course in Miracles (always rich territory fyi.) As is usual for me - and this only gets better with time - I can pick up a book, or put on a song and 'bang!' there is the exact right item to give me solace or put me back on track.
The Course lesson for today is the following:
"Spiritual growth is like childbirth.
You dilate, then you contract.
Then you contract again.
As painful as it all feels, it is the necessary rhythm for reaching the ultimate goal of total openness."
Ohhh, total openness. So that's the goal.
No wonder it feels hard. For me, I'm as open as I want to be and that varies with time...and circumstance. I find sometimes the less intimate I am with a person the easier "open" seems to be. I'm certainly not the first to notice that particular logic. So knowing what the goal is is helpful to me. I can set my sail, head in the direction, clear my mind...intend...yes, intend...
and like all good intentions, may it be blessed and may it be so - for me, and for you too.