There is a quote from Rainer Maria Rilke that I keep near my desk. When I stray it brings me clearly back to the journey - and the journey itself is where I am, and where it's at, in times of ease or struggle.
Take a minute and see what his words mean for you...and may you find some grace in them.
i beg you...
to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart
and try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms
or books written in a very foreign language.
don't search for the answers,
which could not be given you now because you would not be able
to live them.
and the point is to live everything.
live the questions now.
perhaps then, someday far in the future,
you will gradually, without even noticing it,
live your way into the answer...
blessings and namaste