My treasure map.
20 years ago today my trusty astrologer told me that good things were in the stars for me. Yup - clear sailing ahead! I was overjoyed at the possibility. After all, at the time I had no idea how to protect my 13 year old and 10 year old from the doomsday I saw mounting around the family-run business we were a part of, the pile of bills that made my head spin, a marriage that held only the promise of my imagination, and talent in a new age field that was called "pioneering" at best (code for bleeding edge) and fringe at worst.
"Gonna be good for you someday..."
ok, great! When? Next year? Two years? 5 years?
Nooooo....not that soon...
"Somewhere in your late 50's you will begin to feel like it's all clicking."
Yeesh. Not good.
I disavowed her insight and clearly created a path for happiness NOW.
That was forever ago, and life happened - lots and lots of it - rich and full - oh so very full - inspiring and challenging, but not for one minute was it easy.
I did learn however the skill of creating happiness right where I stood.
Now here I am.
Today is my birthday - always a time of self-reflection, contemplation and gratitude - along with a healthy dose of reassessment of circumstances and readjustment of strategy where needed.
Today I am at the end stage of my 50's and everything - everything - about those previous times has changed. Different home. Different state. Different husband. Different life.
I look at my interior and ... I ... feel...it is true. My astrologer was on to something.
Does everyone feel like this at this stage of life? Or did I just outlast all the drama and trauma until finally I could see the light of day from the mere fact of my longevity?
Ha. I don't think so actually. I believe to everything there is a season, and the season of my own harvest is here.
What a wonderful world! (I always loved that song)
And the lesson? The takeaway? ahhh..the takeaway.
- Hang tough.
- Don't give up and don't feel sorry.
- Be your authentic self and always do your best.
- Mostly... recognize that there is a time for everything and everything in it's time.
If you are railing against your circumstances today, I say "gonna be good for you someday..."
May you do your best with what you have as you live the moment and look forward with great anticipation to what is yet to be.
Many blessings to you along the way.